I realized after visiting some of my blog sisters, especially Annie and Lisa that:
MY LIFE IS UP TO ME
to a very large degree (umm...maybe 100%). I've been reacting and letting inertia and "my natural state" (which is worry and anxiety) take over my life. Some of it is the change in the weather and some is unsettling circumstances (which I'll write about later) and some is probably physiological. But I've been pretty depressed and in a funk for days...probably since My Sacred Life ended, if not before. But at least when I was doing MSL, it caused me to refocus throughout the day and to think positively and reframe life, not get taken over by random thoughts, so-called normal fears, and form a habit of worry, discouragement, settling, a small life, etc.
I'm realizing too as I'm writing this that I've been trying to force things to happen instead of creating them or allowing them, instead of surrendering to the wisdom of the Universe for me.
So, I'm going to refocus, nurture myself with healthy behaviors, strongly consider physiological help via herbs and medications, and create something different.
What is making this a Sacred Sunday is that I'm going to get back on track...back into a space of sacredness...change my attitude...and re-member my dreams and the path that I've been on that was good.
Rediscover the possibility that shaped my life for so long and that has temporarily gone behind a cloud.
Sweep the cobwebs off my soul and take action that I know is what I need right now.
I'll let you know how it goes.
~Picture by LoveHubbie Mark altered by Me
21 comments:
A wonderful post full of possibilities...like our lives! My heart feels full after reading this.
I can feel the energy of new beginning sprinkled all throughout your post. Isn't that wone of the most wonderful things about life? We can create those new beginnings...Doesn't have to be huge or all consuming...just one small step at a time will do...Thanks for sharing your journey so honestly...Bev
Why end Sacred Days? Just keep them going, each new day can be sacred for each of us. No need to stop just because the "event was one month long". It seemed to keep you focused. Wonderful. Keep those thoughts in mind and each new day can be an "event" something to wake up for...yes, create it and it is yours. Enjoy.
Yes, brush those cobwebs off your soul (love this line!) and start polishing it - life is too short. And Bev is right it's all the little things we do towards a better life that make such a difference. Sending you hugs and support from Oz - don't forget to :)
Yes, thank you, Lisa, and thank you for your great post that sparked my post and gave me a wake-up call.
Bev, thank you for sensing the departure from negative energy...and calling it to my attention. This is good! Yes, baby steps. It is challenging for me to be honest about "negative" things, so thanks :)
Lynn, you're right...I thought I would enjoy a release from daily blogging pressure, but it ended up differently.
Patti, life is short, you are SO right. Thanks for the hugs and love from down under :)
Love to all four of you lovely ladies, and many thanks for your much-appreciated support,
Olivia
Olivia, I felt a letdown when I ended daily MSL postings too. I am naturally lazy AND/OR a workaholic -- a wild and weird dichotomy but I'm slowly learning to live with a new blend of accountability and gentleness with myself. It sounds like you are too! Gentle, clear action is always good for the soul! YAY for you!
Much love!
Thanks, Carla...I am very slowly learning exactly what you said, "...a new blend of accountability and gentleness with myself..." I appreciate what you share and your encouragement. Thank you, and much love back to you, O
Hi Olivia,
Refocusing, surrenduring, allowing, and resting... all homeopathic remedies for the soul that welcomes them. May you have a week yields everything you need inside and out.
And...I'm glad you stopped by my blog the other day. Thank you for your comments!
Thank you Cheryl, too, for visiting and for your comments. I am wanting this week to be a new beginning!
Olivia-
This is such a tough time of year for so many ... and I am sorry to hear of your sadness and anxiety. To "take action" is the name of the game for me, too. I appreciate your forthright sharing of what is going on with you. Hey, why not continue MSLP - posting whenever you are able? Wishing you Deep Peace.
Thank you, Lori-Lyn. It is a hard time for many people...I wonder if it's the change of season or something more. Thank you too for your wishes for Deep Peace---I love that, O
Olivia,
It's so easy to get sidetracked, isn't it? Those annoying little doubts and fears pop up and I don't know about you, but I kind of go on autopilot. I'm working to keep a firm hand on the controls. Some days are better than others. :)
Yes, Angela...in my case I wake up and see that the plane is nosediving and I don't know how I got there. Yes, some days are. Let's hope for better days ahead for all...Blessings and love, Olivia
I hear you. It is soooo easy to get off the path. We have to start every single day with intention, don't we? That can seem like a lot of work at times.
Yes, Kelly. It can even feel impossible, although I do think that is a delusion. And even the work---it's a good thing. xxoo
Olivia,
I miss MSL too. It was always great to visit everyone and see what they shared. I'm always amazed at the roller coaster that I ride sometimes. There are days that are so empowering and peaceful and others that really get me off the path. The important thing is to do just what you're doing: be gentle and give yourself the chance to dust yourself off a bit and start with a fresh new outlook. There are always new days to get excited again.
Thanks for visiting and commenting, Jane. And another HAPPY BIRTHDAY! (You can't have too many of those!)
I want to be gentle, I don't want to feel depressed, and I'm hoping that the transition just happens here soon.
But you make the point of HOPE, which is something to always cling to...something important.
I am hoping...
Dear Olivia, I can't believe that we are going through the same thing at the moment. I would like to share all this in an email with you. It's so important that we help each other out. I have really appreciated the support that you have given me over the last week and the offer of emailing. I hope I can provide the same support to you. I go away for a several days tomorrow, but when I come back I hope we can chinwag!
In the meantime, I highly recommend getting some chinese anti-depressants from a naturopath. The difference they have made to me is enormous and I am so grateful not to have taken the prescription meds train. I hope it gets better still as I continue taking them, but I am so grateful for the change in me from last week.
Much love to you, Olivia
Annie
xxx
PS. Maybe then we can get back to you some regular posting on SFS!
Thank you, Annie. I'll look forward to emailing and chinwagging (that's a new word for me!) with you. I hope you have a good trip and I'll look forward to your return. Much love back to you, too, O
I love this post! I think you're right about how trying to FORCE something to happen doesn't work very well and causes lots of anxiety and stress... I've been struggling with some of that in my own life with my term on the school board. You've reminded me that I don't have to MAKE everything turn out right.
Oh, thanks, Karen. I have missed you.
No, it's not all up to us, is it. Let go and let God.
Your comment is a good reminder to me of my words from last week and of this lesson that I need to learn again and again...apparently only to forget it...and learn it again!
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