I realized after visiting some of my blog sisters, especially Annie and Lisa that:
MY LIFE IS UP TO ME
to a very large degree (umm...maybe 100%). I've been reacting and letting inertia and "my natural state" (which is worry and anxiety) take over my life. Some of it is the change in the weather and some is unsettling circumstances (which I'll write about later) and some is probably physiological. But I've been pretty depressed and in a funk for days...probably since My Sacred Life ended, if not before. But at least when I was doing MSL, it caused me to refocus throughout the day and to think positively and reframe life, not get taken over by random thoughts, so-called normal fears, and form a habit of worry, discouragement, settling, a small life, etc.
I'm realizing too as I'm writing this that I've been trying to force things to happen instead of creating them or allowing them, instead of surrendering to the wisdom of the Universe for me.
So, I'm going to refocus, nurture myself with healthy behaviors, strongly consider physiological help via herbs and medications, and create something different.
What is making this a Sacred Sunday is that I'm going to get back on track...back into a space of sacredness...change my attitude...and re-member my dreams and the path that I've been on that was good.
Rediscover the possibility that shaped my life for so long and that has temporarily gone behind a cloud.
Sweep the cobwebs off my soul and take action that I know is what I need right now.
I'll let you know how it goes.
~Picture by LoveHubbie Mark altered by Me