Today I to start another BE BRAVE project, not a formal one that people can join, but just begin to do the process again for myself for a month. Jessie started the BE BRAVE project back in October of 2007, and we both had so much growth from it. It involves just doing one thing each day that is brave---it could be anything at all, something right for where you are. The hard part is keeping it up day in day out, but this is what builds the bravery muscles. The things you do don't have to be big or grand; they can be tiny but breakthrough for you. It's the dailiness and the focus, not the task in and of itself that makes it a BE BRAVE task.
So today was my Day 1. My task was very big. I took a big step in a relationship I'm in. It didn't work out well, but that wasn't the point. The point was that I took the step. I risked super big-time. The second part of this is maybe even better. I was pretty much devastated afterward, but instead of eating over it, or running away, I felt my feelings. I cried and howled and held my head and screamed and even vomited, but I felt the excruciating hurt. Then I slept for three hours. My eyes are sore and I'm kind of a mess, but I am proud of myself for doing something that I felt was right for me, even though it was risky.
I know that at the end of 30 days I'll be a braver person because I already am just from today.
Now for those of you who have never done BE BRAVE, it doesn't have to be this nasty. It is generally good, and may feel like the most wonderful thing you've ever done in your life. You can control the unpleasantness by not choosing big huge things with crushing consequences. I just wanted to start out that way. I sort of dove in head first, knowing the water was filled with boulders. I did hit a rock, but I'm on the mend, and still glad to be back in the water.
~Photo by In Mother Words
UPDATE: Here is a link to Jessie's formal site kickoff!