Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Wellness Wednesday: Receiving Fully
This post was inspired by Elena, who created Wellness Wednesday, and who blogged about this very topic today. Her post also was titled "Receiving Fully". This is such a provocative topic, and her post explores it using examples from her time at a spot dear to my heart---the Maui upcountry.
How hard is it to receive---fully? I'm not sure what this even means in my life, because whenever I receive, I immediately feel as though I now owe the giver and want to pay them back. I know that they do not feel this way, and that it's just me. Another thing I try to do that is related is to try to then earn gifts after they are given. Even more often, I try to sabotage what I have been given because of a feeling of undeservedness that is irrational, but there nevertheless. I want to learn to relax into what God, friends, family, the Universe provides for me and accept, receive, relax---fully.
I look forward to many opportunities to learn do this.