Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Spiritual Changes in November

Since I've been on this HCG diet, I've been more assertive and more interested in pursuing spiritual community. We belong to a lovely church. I have tried my best to fit in and just can't. I am always so different from everyone else and as nice as they are, I seem to have some sort of block in that I cannot relate to anyone without feeling as though they find me hopelessly strange. I find myself making excuses for being who I am. So I have decided to listen to myself and to God about what to do next.

Just today I joined two new online groups. One has been started by my blogging friend Heather Plett and is called Sophia Leadership. Actually it is not a group, but a web site, and much more. Visit Sophia Leadership here at the main site or also here on Facebook. It is a place for anyone who wants to explore the idea and the experience of feminine wisdom. My particular Christian tradition teaches me to not trust myself or my own wisdom, but to only trust Jesus. I disagree. I believe that in learning to trust myself, I use one of the greatest gifts I have, given to me by God, and in doing so I learn how to become closer to Jesus. I even believe that it is He who leads me to know and honor my feminine wisdom. This is a very radical idea to some, but I have come to believe this wholeheartedly.

Sophia Leadership is also for men, for anyone who wants to participate in feminine wisdom.

I really love Heather's logo. It beautifully embodies and expresses feminine wisdom. As some of you know, I am fascinated by the labyrinth. Heather's logo of course is not a labyrinth, but it is a spiral that is reminiscent of a labyrinth in many ways.

Another group I joined today is based upon the book "God in the Yard" by L. L. Barkat. It is a small group of women who are reading the book and doing the exercises together. I love the idea of going into my backyard and listening to God. I know that I will enjoy this process, no matter what answers I get. If I don't make a point of doing this instead of being wistful about it, I will never make the time for it. Find out more about this amazing book here.

I know I'm joining quite a few groups lately. I am doing this HCG diet and have a private blog for it (let me know if you want an invite), plus I am studying faster EFT, I've joined Kate's The Queen of Creativity Castle, and now Sophia Leadership and God in the Yard. All are so important to me right now. I know that it may end up that I don't have time or focus for all of them, but I'm hoping that there will be a good fit for me in as many as possible.

At any rate, I am in a spiritual growth mode. I don't know where it will lead, but I trust God. And myself.


groovysabrina said...

Wonderful, Olivia, good for you. You will find what you are seeking.

Kim Mailhot said...

That trust is a precious gift. Go where that love takes you, Beautiful Heart.

Olivia said...

Thank you for your encouragement and support, Beautiful Bride Sabrina and Queen of the Arts Kim. Your comments are blessings to me this morning. xoO

patti said...

You are following your heart O. Enjoy your growth spurt!

Olivia said...

Thank you, Patti ♥

kate i said...

Most of my spiritual community is online as well, although I do have two dear friends who live close by and we share our spiritual journey together too. You'll know which groups speak to your heart and which, if any, will drop by the wayside.

Your heart is your truest compass. Enjoy the company.

Olivia said...

Mahalo kate, you are so blessed to have nearby friends whom you can share with spiritually of like mind. I look forward to experiencing this.

We are BOTH blessed by an amazing online ohana, aren't we!

Aloha nui loa,


Anonymous said...

Olivia, I think it's sad that you have been in church environments where you were not encouraged to listen to Sophia. I have had wonderful experiences in Unitarian, Quaker and now Unity churches where there was no dogma and where I was encouraged to listen to the divine feminine. I hope you find a community where you don't have to pretend even the tiniest little bit to be other than who and what you are. 100% authenticity, 100% acceptance. This is what I envision for you! It sounds like you are being led now and it's very exciting!

Olivia said...

Thank you, Kelly, it sounds like a beautiful vision. I think that the key is "no dogma". I think I have chosen, as I yearn to be a Christian and follow Jesus, churches that emphasize their interpretation of the Bible. This is fine, but then everyone must believe the same thing.

I feel much more comfortable where there is more freedom to think and to disagree. I love the Sophia Leadership group particularly because Heather also is a Christian, she is liberal, and she has integrated a feminist spirituality. I don't even know how to "listen to Sophia", so I am certain I will learn a great deal. And then decide what I truly believe.

You know me, I'm also reading books :)

I do believe I'm being led, Kelly.

Peace, and a wonderful weekend,


Heather Plett said...

Thank you SO much for the lovely shout-out Olivia! I am so touched that you found Sophia Leadership to be meaningful to you!

Like you, I firmly believe that we can trust a Christian God AND make space for the feminine divine. The concept of Sophia, in fact, is something I first came across in the Old Testament. It's right there in the Bible, so why does so much of the Christian church ignore it?

(By the way, your comments section doesn't let me sign in with my Sophia Leadership account, so this links back to my old blog.)

Olivia said...

Heather, I am excited about the possibility and am looking forward to what I discover in the group.

I don't know why the Christian church tends to ignore most everything about the feminine. I think Jesus was very female-promoting for the culture he was in.

Heather, I am sorry you couldn't link in and hope it is a temporary problem. I'm not sure what to do if it continues. I need to update my link section and include a link in my sidebar.

Peace to you today, O